I want to be loathsome if loathsome means to be like Him.
“One must face the fact that all the talk about His love for men, and His service being perfect freedom, is not (as one would gladly believe) mere propaganda, but an appalling truth. He really does want to fill the universe with a lot of loathsome little replicas of Himself- creatures whose life, on its miniature scale, will be qualitatively like His own, not because He has absorbed them but because their wills freely conform to His. We want cattle who can finally become food. He wants servants who can finally become sons. We want to suck in, He wants to give out. We are empty and woukd be filled; He is full and overflows. Our war aim is a world in which Our Father Below has drawn all other things into himself: the Enemy wants a world full of beings united to Him but still distinct. ” – Screwtape to Wormwood in letter number six